Showing posts with label angst. Show all posts
Showing posts with label angst. Show all posts

Monday, March 21, 2011

Poetry meet art. Art, poetry.

My dear friend Angela is coming to visit me in a couple weeks!  I'm so excited to see her, it made me open a box of pictures that she had drawn for me one birthday.  More than a few years ago, she illustrated some of my poems as a gift, and I had them framed and hanging on my wall in my old apartment.  Since The Great Move of 2010, I haven't put them back up yet.  I was trying to figure out why and I wonder if it's because I don't want to commit that much to this new place.  I like the apartment okay, but it's just a place to live, not a home like the last one.  Possibly this is because I haven't put up any pictures.

Anyway, I thought it would be fun to take photos of her artwork and post them here.  At least I'll feel at home on my blog.

This one accompanies a poem written about a trip to Venice I took with my family.  It's called "A Native's Dream":


This one is "Through the Keyhole," written at a particularly angsty time in college:



I realize it might be hard to read, which makes me thankful for my shoddy photographic skills.

And finally this one you might be familiar with already:




A Native's Dream

Rain ruined my first impression 
of Saint Mark's Square, flooded
enough to force people to balance, elevated
on wooden boards while we sought refuge
in the cathedral, guarded 
by bronze horses,
with my father, quite taken 
by the mosaic tile floors
slanting toward the altar.
"How long do you suppose," 
he asked, head bowed, 
"it took them to piece this place together?" 
I forgot to answer
in awe of those flashing cameras.

We struck out again into December
toward jade-colored waves that spilled over
concrete docks on the Grand Canal.  
Gondoliers stood in the wet drops like needles
and called to us, offering
special deals "for only today."
One young man in a black cap promised
in exchange for 80,000 lira
to wipe down the vinyl seats on his gondola himself.
My father agreed, making his familiar declaration
that this was "his city" because he came from
a full line of Venetians with trademark blue eyes, dark hair.
Our guide squinted his brown eyes and held out his hand.

We sat rocking in the boat under our huge umbrella,
the young man at the helm like a tired god
informing us that he was also a fireman.  Luca 
told my father how one could only be a gondolier
if he father was, and his father before him.  
As we passed under the Bridge of Sighs, 
the trail of my fingers swirled the canal like marble.

Monday, March 14, 2011

The error of my Wei

I was trying to find a poem I remembered reading a long time ago by the Chinese poet Wang Wei.  The teacher who introduced him to me used to pronounce his name as if it sounded like "wrong way," which she thought was hilarious.  It's been maybe 12 years since I last saw the poem, but the imagery struck me at the time.  I even recall copying it into a notebook.  I don't know where the notebook is now- probably rotting in a box full of angst-ridden verses- but I think this was it:

Stopping at Incense Storing Temple

I did not know the incense storing temple,
I walked a few miles into the clouded peaks.
No man on the path between the ancient trees,
A bell rang somewhere deep among the hills.
A spring sounded choked, running down steep rocks,
The green pines chilled the sunlight's colored rays.
Come dusk, at the bend of a deserted pool,
Through meditation I controlled passion's dragon.

Maybe it was the bell that got me.  You all know I love a good bell ringing.  Looking at this poem now, though, it's just not living up to the impression I had of it.  Luckily, I stumbled onto the writings of the lovely Japanese poet Izumi Shikibu, which cheered me up.  Despite lacking the heterography of Mr. Wang's name, I find her delightful. 

Here's one for the people of Japan right now.  Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

“Although the wind ...”

Although the wind
blows terribly here,
the moonlight also leaks
between the roof planks
of this ruined house.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Valentine's Day: brought to you by angst

The Look

Strephon kissed me in the spring,
Robin in the fall,
But Colin only looked at me
And never kissed at all.

Strephon's kiss was lost in jest,
Robin's lost in play,
But the kiss in Colin's eyes
Haunts me night and day.

-Sara Teasdale
(yet another poet who killed herself)