I have many fears, including but not limited to spiders, roaches, tornadoes, traveling in a car on a bridge over water, heights (this is a new one), and velociraptors. But one other very serious fear for me is encountering a blank screen when I sit down to write. It's a classic western stand-off. The blank page says that it is better off without anything on it. It reasons with me: "Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt." Yeah, thanks for that, page.
Some of the ways I've learned to combat this is to jot down some ideas or the first lines of something on a scrap of paper. That way, I have something to immediately type up before the page can get a word in edgewise. I also stumbled onto another process accidentally. I once had to type up a poem for class from an author I admired, and even the physical act of typing those lines that I knew were great and seeing the words appear on the screen as I "wrote" them gave me courage. It's hard to explain, but if I type a few stanzas from
Edgar Allen Poe, I get an idea of what it's like to see myself type something good, and then it makes me want to tackle my own writing and be better at it. That's one of the reasons I enjoy writing the entries for this blog.
In keeping with the Halloween theme of the week, I thought a little Poe was in order. Now I'll bet you think I'm going to post "The Raven." That poem's pretty good, but I prefer "Annabel Lee." It was the last poem Poe wrote before he died. Many people assume it's about his wife, Virginia, who had died from tuberculosis a couple years before. Poe said that the death of a beautiful woman was the most poetical theme to write about. This poem gives me the wiggins.
Annabel Lee
It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love—
I and my Annabel Lee—
With a love that the wingèd seraphs of Heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsmen came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in Heaven,
Went envying her and me—
Yes!—that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we—
Of many far wiser than we—
And neither the angels in Heaven above
Nor the demons down under the sea
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
For the moon never beams, without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise, but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling—my darling—my life and my bride,
In her sepulchre there by the sea—
In her tomb by the sounding sea.